7th Avenue

‘Oh! Are you still holding your umbrella Kuma Chan?’

"Mumble . . . Hmm   Morning   Hiro-chan"

‘The typhoon is already gone. It’s a beautiful day in tokyo after a long time~.’

"Eh   Typhoon already   gone"

‘Your umbrella looks so cute, Kuma Chan. Give me a peek.’

"Aww   No me don’t give this to u it’s mine"

‘I won’t take it away from you! It’s a little smaller type of umbrella, huh. Does it say "Naked Bunch"?’

"My NAGEDOBUNCHI umbrella"

‘I think it reads Naked Bunch . . . but anyways . . . You can close and put away your umbrella for now. Okay?’

"Aww   No me don’t give this to u it’s mine   Me don’t"

‘Hmmm, alright then, why don’t you hold your cute NAGEDOBUNCHI umbrella for today! It looks fine on you too, Kuma Chan.’

"Yup   mine   umbrella"

Tomorrow would be Tanabata festival.

Satoshi-chan will be dressing up in his linen blue formal suite!

… I’m nervous

People always regard me as that goody-to-shoes girl-next-door which is helpless and only cries to herself. Those close to me, knows me enough of my capability and integrity, those far from me, regards me as someone else, those who loves me for who I am, leaves.

Lately, I began to lose myself. I don’t feel like being that innocent, naive lil girl who often tells herself I should keep this unselfish love and just let him go. But the fact is, True love, is unselfish love. Nonetheless I have to do what’s right for myself. It’s not about US anymore, it’s about ME.

I’m not gonna save his ass. I’m just gonna save my own. My own reputation, pride and integrity. The rest, I leave it to God. GOd will make his judgement. God will do what’s right. God just wants me to be happy. ANd I will.

Yeap people. Kim Jing Hyun, is independant, strong and would never fall. Note for those who left me and accused me.

"You can try, do anything to me, say anything you want. But you can never break me. And even If I Fall, I’ll never face the ground. If you’re gonna take me down with all those pathetic little games, go ahead and try"

A man, who gives me shit like promising words, beautiful words, false feelings, and tells me things like "I won’t ever leave you, Write me a love letter, this is forever, baby girl" and 6 mintues later tells it to someone else which I was hoping she’s much better than me but sadly not. Is not worth my tears at all. As I told a few people today which shocked them… "He’s Fucked"

Ooh~ Kim Jing Hyun being vulgar. Gah Sally, I’m sure you’re happy. besides, this is not the first time i said it, no big. Isn;t it a casual word in you people’s daily conversation?

This is no out of anger. It is out of realisation.

Next Topic. The Man.

Again, I drool over Wu Zun ahahah!

And I never watched or seen his acts. Or heard of him.

I recalled hearing about his status 5 years ago… (O.o) Brandon told me.

And when I flipped through my magazine, A question popped

"What’s your ideal man?"

Well! I have the answer!

Face and body(with that sexy tattoo) like WU ZUN, Personality and sensitivity like TERENCE and the same feelings I had for that Fat Kuma~!

~(*_*~) Oh my god Kim Jing Hyun stop smiling like a dork! *flutters*

ehem *cough*

Next topic.

Bought another dress~ It’s a Chanel Couture gown~

Oh and while I’m at this, I’ll just stress on a point.

People always think I’m this spoilt brat who buys what she wants whenever she wants.

Peh *spits*

These are cash from my parents. Forced me to buy these to attend pretentious events to use me as a bait to hook up with young managinf directors or heirs for ther mallicious purposes~ Is that informative enough about my life? It’s a joke isn’t it~? yeah it is.

Look, if you think standards are issues to be getting into a relationship’s way, take a hike you coward.

Look into your mind and find out what you reall want instead of giving me cowardly excuses.

Sorry But I do not have time to play with someone your standards or any higher ones. Feelings which was sincere, true and real which became my life was questioned by you like an insensitive beast. So don’t come to me with the compromise, stay out of this conversation, I got a backbone stronger than yours. : )

So anyway, what’d you think of the couture gown my girls? Hehe.

I thought of adopting a kid soon enough. Jae hyun and Ji hyun! Here haha comes. *chu*

With the help of my indispensable mother (which I think she’s only good at this) again I was taken out of my ward for a party. NEC’s launching ceremony with lots of ojisan, obasan and those flirtatious heiress which seems to always puzzle me why aren’t they the ones with the oscar nominations.

The place was grand of course, the food, excellent, I could’ve sworn it’s Tony Picardinni’s style of cooking but who cares, I was too hungry to be thinking.

I’ve always wondered… why are daughters or granddaughters of those big shot family… all look so pretty and elegant and sophisticated and hot and sexy. Darn.

I always feel awkward at times like these. I can’t really blend in at all. I don’t do make up, or tie my hair or wear earrings or diamond necklaces… Looking at them flaunting and parading their assets around… Kim Jing-Hyun you’re no where near OTL

I noticed all I had was my pearl white chanel night gown, my grandma’s couple ring necklace… no earrings… only eyeliners… no blushers, foundations… my long hair dangling around without tying them neatly. Oh my god.. Ju-on.. ju.. no more like Sadako (ToT)

But I guess these doesn’t matter at all. I like being myself, comfortable, simple and clean. But.. but.. mommy, their aura is made of sheer brilliance it blinds ( ~*_*)~ *flutters*

When I had dinner… we were served with pumpkin soup… and I dug in! yeah! No more liquid food!

God this tastes too good!

Amane-san : "ah.. Aizawa-san, you shouldn’t eat that, it’s really fattening and it expholiates your skin"

Me : "EH…? really…?"

Amane-san : *nods*

Me : *continues eating*

I mean, come one! With my current weight, it’s fats I’m going for can’t you see that~~

During the ceremonial speech by Yutsuki-san the managing director’s son.

Me : "uhm… Kaoru-chan… Isn’t it… painful to sit that straight up..?"

Kaoru-san : "…"

Me : "…sorry"

But.. but I really don’t have that talenbt to sit up straight at times. I thought a regular human lowers themselves by 1/2 head when they sit to ease the preassure onto the butt…? who told me that…? you… you LIAR! Now Those girls gave me the stares. ahahaha. honestly, to me, it was funny.

It’s hard to be pretentious all the times. You can lie to anyone, but you could never lie to yourself.

But lately… Soy’s been spending lots of time with me.

He get’s jealous really easily… and often shows his temper to me. excuse me… who’s the patient here?

SO I end up trying to make him feel better OTL

I really suck at these sort of stuff…

but he told me "For you, I will change myself anytime without a second thought"

reminds me of someone. But promises are made to be broken. So Soy deserved a pinch from me.

But we took a little pics. For those requesting about my condition. It’s on friendster hehe.

I miss you guys.

One day in the last week, I stepped out onto the veranda after a long time, and watched dawn for a while there.

The color of the sky changed slowly, the shadows on the clouds showed various expressions, which amused me so much.

The residential areas with the feel of sleeping people, the buildings at some distance, all of them are at their most vulnerable, without knowing they are being stared at by me this hard. Hehehe. Thinking things like that I enjoyed the refreshing mood for a while, saw the moment of sunrise at last, then thought "All right, had enough" and went back in the room.

Whew, it felt so good~! It was so beautiful~!

Huh

Itc, itchy ! ! !

Awwww! It’s so itchy, itchy, itchy!

Gosh my arm was bitten 2 times by mosquitoes! So itchy~!

Yes, it’s summer, the season of mosquitoes.

The parts bitten by mosquitoes have got bruised so bad, what’s this? Does this happen to everyone? Or am I allergic to mosquitoes?

I understand if you scratch the bitten part it turns red, but in my case it gets bruised even if I do nothing.

"Huh, what’s wrong with it?"

"Oh, you mean this? I got a mosquito bite"

"Eh??? Then you get such a thing??"

I often have this kind of talk.

You say I better get a bug spray?

Humph ! ! ! Wonder who buys things like that, the products from the company with that awful name . . . ! !

It’s too awful, I disagree violently.

Why they used the name like Kumakilla . . . ! ! !

. . . I was seriously turning my back like that, striking alone against the bug repellent products.

I watched the commercial more carefully and found the company name was "Fumakilla," simply changed sides, and now I’m planning to buy mosquito sticks and bug spray tomorrow at the drugstore.

I discover and learn something new everyday.

Anyway, the website of Fumakilla, I wonder why it has Chinese language version and Indonesian language version. Maybe they are selling things a lot in China and Indonesia, I guess.

Seems like there are a lot of mosquitoes in Indonesia . . .

Late 4am I sneaked out again. Barefooted along the cold pavements of the hospital. Bought myself another candy. Wonder how would it taste on the inside when i get well soon… (O.o)

I am in Love again. Yes. This man, with a smile like a kid, the body so lean, his eyes, his hair, his lips, yes his lips… It’s just 150% my type of masculinity! I’ll show you who this new man …

WU ZUN WU ZUN!!!(´‐ω‐｀)

I’m sorry people, but I’m a hopeless romantic when It comes to Chinese men.

*tries to recall some chinese words*

WU ZUN WU ZUN WO AI NI!

ahahahahaha. Oh lord, seriously, when was the last time I actually fell for a star? I feel so 16 again. But somehow it feels human…

But I feel pathetic at the same time…

wu zun wu zun (´‐ω‐｀)

If by any chance, (since you’re one of Brunei’s top 10 richest man) read Aizawa’s Heiress *snorts* blog here. I want to let you know that…

YOUR CURRENT HAIR DOESN"T MATCH YOU AT ALL!!! GET A HAIR CUT (T.T)

This is hopeless . . .

I give up.

I said "Ye(llow)!" only

I said "YE LLO W" slowly, with spacings

I said "Yellow!" fast.

I said it with an old-man like voice.

I stepped away from the MIC; angled it a little bit

I tried various things but now I give up. I’m not a masochistic type of person!

Nobody has ever told me "AGAIN" this many times but Miyake-san while I’m playign on diaphragams studies. As for thatcases it just makes sense to me, but things seem almost unreasonable to me this time!

Oh By the way, I watched Constantine. A good attempt on watching horror movies on my own!

But I had no guts to turn the volume on at all.. so I kept it at only 9% of the max volume. I could barely hear anything they’re saying! I missed all the main conversations and I tried to strain my ears but I was afraid a sudden shocking sfx sound would just blow my soul away (ToT) this is toturing!!

Does anyone knows why angle Gabriel is bad!!??? *flutters*

"Brain Age: Train Your Brain in Minutes a Day!," a huge-hit well-known software!

"Come to think of it Nintendo-san gave it to me, if I remember right . . . " It flashed across my mind, so I dug around and found it.

So here I am, going to play "Brain Train" for the first time, with a hu~ge delay behind the times. *thrilled*

First of all let’s play the one called "Quick Play." Female, Age 24, susceptible to the sound of the word "Quick."

Ah! So here it is, the one you answer questions with your voice!

What I should do is to answer the color name. Okay, let’s go! *pant pant*

"Red!"

*bingo*

"Blue!"

*bingo*

"Black!"

*bingo* (Hehe, this is a piece of cake!)

"Red!"

*bingo*

"Yellow!"

< AGAIN >

"Huh? Yellow!"

< AGAIN >

"Yellow ! ! !"

< AGAIN >

"Y E L L O W ! ! !"

< AGAIN >

"Yellow! Yellow! Yellow!"

< It seems your voice and the software are not compatible . . . >

OTL

. . . My voice or pronunciation might be strange. Let’s do it again!

The second try!

It’s going well again! Hm, Oh, Yellow came again, but I feel like I can make it this time!

"Yellow!"

< AGAIN >

Gah . . . !

"Yellow! (in a high key)"

< AGAIN >

"Yellow (mimicking Medama Oyaji)"

< AGAIN >

"Yellow (in a whisper)"

< AGAIN >

"YE~LL~OW~ (with a taste of "I Am A Thousand Wind That Blows")

< AGAIN >

"Yellow (in a low key)"

< AGAIN >

"Kirin desu…"(making the key as low as possible)"

< It seems your voice and the software are not compatible . . . >

*patience ran out*

(|||」｀□´)」*SQUEAKS*

Just stop playing around with me!

Hrmph! All right then I’ll just quit playing such a game and train my brain by reading out books, instead!

｡･ﾟ(´□｀)ﾟ･｡Weeeeep

I guess, some of you would have had such an experience like this.

Someone please let me know the knack to have the DS recognize my voice (T_T)

By the way, "Ace Attorney" never recognized my "Objection!" when I played it, but when my friend next to me shouted some dirty words it recognized those as "Objection," which got me down.

Was browsing through my folders and magazines and look what I found!

(O.O) Who’s that!? She looks so familiar!

I’ve seen her somewhere!?

Where!? ~(-o-~)

Izaki : "it’s you dammit"

Me : "EH?"

It doesn’t look like me. Yosh the power of make up is fantastic (T_T)

I remembered this last year when I was sragged into this shoot for Lemon. My skin  as you all know, are sensitive to make ups. So they had to use special natural organic sorta base to coevr my skin… I felt like an egg.

Nonetheless I’m sure you guys have seen this hehe. I’m just a lil stunned to come across this.

Maybe… I’m just not used to seeing myself do this sort of things. It’s sad! I’m bad at cameras and posing.

"EVAN! look who’s this!?" *sends scan*

"I don’t know… she has an awkward smile. Not model material"

"…"

"And long straight hair are so last season."

"…"

"She only has one shot in the entire page!? Haha!"

"…"

"…"

"That’s me"

"Oh wow pretty! damn! she’s fine!"

( -_-)=))x.x)

COme to think of it… everytime I shift an angle for the camera… I look horrendously different… Just how Kei-chan looks different every angle.

How grampa’s body changes when he turns around…

How Michiru’s hair looks different when she flips around…

How my dad’s face shape changes when he looks up and down…

…

It’s genetics… cool

friend of mine gave this slick opener to me!

(So this means I haven’t bought one up till now ahahaha……)

Just when I thought everything would be alright when I wake up. The doctors said I definitely would suffer short amnesia and I had to recap a few things with my body… But it wasn’t easy. I remembered almost everything. Lord help me.

My friends… all of you, at time I think you care too much for me, and I really truly love you guys for that. But there are lines to be drawn where vengeance is not the answer and crossing the line is not making things better. Why am I writing this here anyway, it won’t quite help anything now…

Is it time to really just give in to fate?

Anyway my dull day was brightened up today with a surprise visit from a very old friend. Chen Yi! Yeap! Hehe that man came knocking at my door and I was really shocked to see this familiar looking stranger.

“Did you come all the way from Taiwan to see me?”

“No I have a shoot here, just dropping by”

“So I’m not your top priority then? Chih”

“I skipped my schedules”

“…”

“…”

“Don’t blame me when you get caught”

Hehe I thought it’d be nice to have someone’s company with me today, especially from a friend I haven’t seen in ages. A friend that shared so much with me and many things happened, somehow it slipped.

We went to Roponggi! I wouldn’t say this place was a good place for food, but what he needed to fulfill his appetite was shopping not food! It was a tough escape from my house, but hey, who wouldn’t let me out on a date with Chen Yi~

After a long walk and shopping along the streets, we decided to eat… at MOS burger.

“Don’t you have these in Taiwan? I mean, it’s like McDonalds” I wondered

“We do? I don’t know… maybe we do or we don’t”

He’s as indecisive as he use to be heh. Not much has changed I guess. Maybe sometimes at those spur of a moment someone changes momentarily but time would bring their senses back. I’m beginning to think… sometimes human can’t change after all, no matter how hard we try, we are who we are.

Ah… I dropped my pickle…

He’s changed a lot though. More mature I should say. He brings himself up real well, it’s sad no one in Japan recognizes you yet aww… But I’m sure you would make it big! Kim Jing-Hyun is rooting for you yosh!!

It was so hot today, summer kills, but I’m sure for those who lives along the tropical hemisphere have no problem with this scorching degree (>_<) And I wore a beanie out cause my hair isn’t in a good shape at all… oh god, come to think of it, during my 2 ½ weeks of sleep I had not gotten a proper hair wash!

But it’d be weird to ask my guest to accompany me to a hair salon… but my hair was itching real bad… mommy what was I to do… so I came up with my lamest excuse.

“Hey Andy (His roman name) you hair looks dry, let’s go have it fixed!”

“It’s mat wax dear”

“It looks dry though, you don’t want people staring at a star with that hair :D”

“No one knows me here”

“I do”

“…”

“…”

“Ok I need a hair wash, look at my hair \(T.T\) (/T.T)/ *flutters*

So we ended up in Hair Salon Nickey!

And as compensation to my selfish and abrasive needs, I bought him a popsicle!

Love me. Hehe.

I had a great day, catching up a lot of stuff between the two of us. Thanks Andy.