Hiroko’s Notes 17th May 2007
Taken From Hiroko’s noteback May 17 2007
Dear Notebook,
When someone mentions life. What do you think is the first thing that hits their minds? painful memories or sweet memories? I think most people would answer "painful memories"
Why?
That’s because God could give you 100 over memories of happiness but only 1 memories of sadness, but that’s what hits you most. Vice versa, That’s me! Hehe.
WHen asked the question by my doctor. "Hiro-san, WHat is Life to you? Happiness or sadness?"
I smiled at him. Without a doubt, I said
"Happiness"
That’s because… all my life I have been through the worst time of my life, sadness, pain, breakdowns and depression, more than any happiness. Therefore, Every god gave me 1 happy moment, it’s the thing that affects me most.
The happiest moments of achieving a recipe, hanging out with my friends, being there for them, loving kei chan and picasso, the boys in the mansion, the changing seasons that gives me excuses to buy new clothes… and best of all, happiness shared with Kuma-chan. I probably could count the number of happy events in my life with one hand. I treasure that.
They probably are right. He isn’t meant for me. We are not destined together. He would be with someone else. But I still believe, that we were meant to be. I still do. If he chose someone else, I believe his choice is the perfect one for him. Because I sitll believe in him that’s why I’m still able to smile now.
It’s not being with someone you love that makes you truly happy. It’s seeing them being Happy which makes you feel truly happy. I am happy… He could start again so fast, Honestly yes it hurts to see him moving on so fast, but yet, I am happy.
I am happy and have no regrets to any events that happened or things that are bound to come in the future. We lose friends along the way, but eventually we will be together again.
What is the strongest emotion, feeling and energy that tops any fom of immaterial boundaries? Peace, Faith and Hope. With this three still in me, that no one can take away, I will survive.
