conception
sometimes you have lotsa people coming to you and asking you "are you ok?" and all you said was "i’m perfectly fine" smiling. and then they don’t ask any further and walk off… leaving you behind alone.. again. Some people don’t think it’s wise to ask.. but i think it’s always wise to ask.. so someone knows at least you’re there for them, you’re with them and there lies your undying support. the simple question like "whats wrong?talk to me hunz" is always so comforting to me, though i know i do find it hard to express my thoughts at time… but at the same time i dont wana be left alone there too.. i guess i only got my friends on this, not shy or afraid to ask whether or not there was anything wrong with me..
heh honestly.. i hate lookin out for people ro taking care of em.. but somehow my otehr side always tells me to look out for em.. then whos gonna look out for me..? I have to abide to other feelings and if they have a prob and all and they are keeping it to themselves, stupidly i just abdie and pretend everythin was ok.. then did they ever considered my own feelings when they did that…? I dont mean to be selfish.. but i wana feel needed and loved at times too.. im still..human.
their excuses will always be they dont want me to get worried or sad yadayada then whats the point of me loving them for as a friend and family? i know it hurts more that they keep things from you rather than not sharing it with you… i know all of you out there can relate to me too right? anyway it’s not like i’ve not been getting the same complains from my girls haha…. sigh…
hope seems like the summer birds so swiftly fly away..
